An account of the Epic Struggle, to determine who has the will power to live a more healthy life. THE SCALES HAVE BEEN RESET. THE PAST DOES NOT MATTER. WE HAVE STARTED A NEW JOURNEY.
Quote of the Day
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
My Embarrassing Moment
Okay here are 2
These really don't have to do with weight lose but I am sure you will like them... The first on is I think I was about 8 years old and I was at my Aunt Jeannes house and she had made a Ham for supper.. Well either my cousin asked what we were going to have to eat or my mother asked what I ate while I was there( i don't remember which) but I said it was skinless chicken and to this day my aunt still picks on me about it......
Okay the other embarrassing moment was I saw a BFI truck picking up the trash at school.. I was in the 2nd grade came home all exited and told my mom that the FBI was at my school picking up the trash and I was scared.. She laughed so hard and I was mad at her because it was serious business if the FBI is going threw the school trash...'
Again they pick on me for that all the time too..
Homework Assignment
My mom always had little dishes of candy out all over the house. I went to her house yesterday and she had a dish of chocolate coffee beans and another of cow tails and dove chocolate Easter eggs. Anyways, I think I was eight when she had me and my brother start doing Weight Watchers with her. She got rid of all the soda in the house and made us start drinking seltzer. She put our first glass into her crystal champagne flutes to make it special but I thought it was gross. When she walked away, I put a handful of chocolate after dinner mints into the bottom of the glass to make it taste better. I would also sit under the dining room table and eat candy because it had a long table cloth and lots of chairs around it so I thought no one could see me eating. I would hide my candy wrappers all over the house or flush them down the toilet so I wouldn't get caught.
Twenty years later and I'm still doing that - hiding my overeating. I'll buy something at the grocery store and eat it in the car on my way home and either throw the wrapper out the window or hide it in the car until I can safely throw it away. It's sick.
I knew at a very early age that I did not possess any natural athletic ability. Or I was just fat. I remember playing kickball in my backyard with my next door neighbor Kristen Malone and my friend Colleen Hackenson (both of whom ended up being soccer jocks in high school). I realized that I was losing and could not keep up with them and I started hyperventilating and now, from experience, I realize I was having a panic attack. It felt like my throat was closing up and I couldn't breath and I was crying and incredibly embarrassed. Later that same year, I was 10 and in fifth grade, we had to run a mile in gym. They made us run around the big baseball field and I don't remember how far I made it but I do remember going to the nurse's office, breathing into a paper bag, my grandfather picking me up early and taking me for ice cream on the way home.
Please share your stories with us - you may learn something from them. I know I just did.
Got nothing...
This is a picture of a real Barracuda. Obviously, I was mistaken.
To this day my family makes fun of me and I truly believe that the memory of the embarrassment made it hard for me to want to fish. I now have discovered fishing again and I don't care that when I was 8 years old I didn't know what a Pickrel was, so there, take that. Lastly, it was JERRY who told me it was a Barracuda, so I blame him. Your assignment is to blog about an embarrassing story from a long time ago that you just can't seem to forget.
Monday, June 29, 2009
Liberation
Week 17 Results
Today I did a 45 minute spinning class at the gym. This is an incredible workout. First you get on this bike looking thing and then a crazy dude starts yelling at you to peddle harder. Then there are the up-downs and the climbs and the cadence and everything else. You sweat like a basketball player. Here's the funny part, before you know it, the 45 minutes are over. That was the best part. Today I am encouraged about my diet. I had two eggs for breakfast with a diet english muffin and light butter. I had an antipasto salad for lunch, BUT NO BREAD, and a very sensible pork dinner with boiled potatoes and steamed vegetables. I feel good about my diet today and I feel good about myself because I was able to do 45 minutes.
I do not know how to get remotivated every day, but I have decided to try. I think this is a new phase of dieting, where I have to work harder to stay on track. I am so complacent. I can lift heavy things and I can run a mile. I do not get winded playing with the kids. I go fishing with Mike, which is awesome. Jason and I are going to go fishing tomorrow if the weather is good. I also want to plan a day of fishing with Jonathan and Joshua and Dad. My house is about to sell (I hope!) and we're pretty settled in here. I really like my job and the people I work with. So you see, complacency sets in. I want to lose another 50 pounds and I know I can do, because I have already done it.
Welcome back Angie!!! Now... we've only lost 481 lbs as a team since the beginning and we GAINED versus last week. (Thanks Bart.)
Roll Call:
Aunt Ann & Uncle Bob - You can do better, but this week, you did the best. Focus, Focus, Focus.
Katie - Thank you for always losing for us. It helps me and inspires me.
Angie - Just keep losing a pound a week and one year later you're down 50.
Fran - Slow and Steady wins the race.
Michael & Lisa - Mike, I know you can TASTE the 199.... keep driving.
Aunt Jeanne - WOWOWOWOW... you're on fire... have more weeks with no time!
Everyone Else - You WILL do better this week. It is serious weight loss business time.
FEEDING TIME !!!!
Every MONDAY ---BACK TO BASICS
Love you when I KNOW that I can do better....
Paula Lula Angel
Friday, June 26, 2009
" Im Just a Girl Who Cant Say NO !!! "
This is going to be my personal goal....for the weekend...Just stop and listen to myself ...and say ....No Thankyou .....that will be my chanllenge...
Love you when I got to get ahold of my crazy emotions...with a little help from the SUN.
Paula Lula Angel :0)
Thursday, June 25, 2009
When one door closes.......
So lets talk about comfort food.....it is hard to not try and comfort yourself with things that taste good....I feel bad....I feel excited....makes no sense...but I am sure you get the idea.
200 people out of a job...
Hip hip hooray for the economy.....when will it all end and get better ???
Peace for today....because when God closes a door he opens a window of opportunity..
Love you when I just cant say no to chocolate today...
Paula Lula Angel :0)
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
A quest to find "Good to Eats"
Monday, June 22, 2009
HELLOOOOO?!?!?!?
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Please Note the "Diet Coke"
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Fatten Up Weekend
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
So WHO still visits here for words of Wisdom ???
I know that I like to come here to see what there is to read to help me on the road to SUCCESS, so who is here with me....I am just curious .....click on the comment section below and tell me that you are here...this is a test ...it is an easy one.....anyone can pass this one....
Oh yeah...how is your week going so far..it is Wednesday and in the old days..
Wednesdays was Prince spaghetti day !! ANTHONY !!!!!!!!
Love you when I am feeling a bit nostalgic
Paula Lula Angel :0)
Monday, June 15, 2009
Week 15 Results
Friday, June 12, 2009
Jess is 33 !!!!
Happy Birthday , yesterday, Jess....and many many more...
PS STAY AWAY FROM THE DEVIL DOGS you are stronger than they are....I have faith in you....you look wonderful...don't slide backwards....give yourself good health for you birthday...
Love you when I was busy having you and dad was with pep racing the pigeons. :0)
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Be Your Own Friend
POSITIVE SELF TALK DOES WORK....DON'T FOCUS ON WHAT YOU ARE DOING WRONG.....FOCUS ON WHAT YOU ARE DOING RIGHT !!! WHEN YOU MAKE A BAD CHOICE OR DECISION , DON'T DWELL ON IT...JUST MOVE FORWARD AND DO NOT REPEAT IT, OR SAY, OH WELL , MY DAY IS MESSED UP SO I WILL START ALL OVER AGAIN IN THE MORNING....START ALL OVER AGAIN ONCE YOU REALIZE THAT YOU ARE IN TROUBLE....IT IS VERY REWARDING TO BE IN CONTROL....DON'T LET NEGATIVE SELF TALK GET THE BEST OF YOU !!!! BE YOUR OWN BEST FRIEND .
LOVE YOU WHEN THIS LIFE IS NOT A DRESS REHEARSAL....MAKE THE BEST OF IT !!! BE HAPPY WITH YOUR CHOICES...
PAULA LULA ANGEL :0)
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Week 14 Results
As a team since the beginning of round two we have lost 140 lbs. Since the start of the challenge we have lost 491 lbs. I have to tell you that eating is more fun than losing weight. I am really back to my old habits and the scale is showing it. There were cold cuts in the house, and I must have had at least 20 slices directly from the fridge. I even hid it from everyone! I do not know where my motivation has gone. I want to get it back. I was so fired up when we started. I want to be that fired up again. I am going to try to do at least one post a day and that should keep dieting top of mind. I am not sure how to make it fun again. Right now, it is not fun, I am just unhappy with myself and feel like I am letting people down. Let's do roll call:
Mike & Lisa: Lisa, you did ok, but Mike looks like you are really working for the sub-200 weigh-in. Just so you know, both you AND Lisa are at Challenge Lows. Congrats.
Becky & Greg: All Right!!!!! I know you can do this. This little spark shows you can light a fire. I'm so glad that the nutritionist helped. Let's go for two weeks in a row!
Mom & Dad: See you had a good week. Dad is still covering old ground, and mom you are fighting to get back to where you were six weeks ago. I blame myself because I have to be more motivated too.
Aunt Ann: You are SOOOO close to those big new numbers. Have a good week and you'll be there. Uncle Bob - you've covered this ground before - maybe you can get back to a challenge low.
Mike & Jeanne - Mike, you've been exactly the same weight for 5 weeks, at least you haven't gained. It says a lot that you quit smoking and haven't gained, that is not easy to do.
Fran - Do not be so hard on yourself. You are at a Challenge Low!!!! You are VERY close to some new numbers, keep smiling!
Katie - I will help. I will do one post a day, even if it is a silly small one. I promise.
More, more, more
Why is it that after I've fallen off the wagon, it's so hard to get back on? Last week, I gave up on Tuesday when I went to the Harvest with Chris. Wednesday, I went to the Red Lion Inn in Stockbridge. I went to Applebee's for lunch on Thursday and had 4 large slices of pizza for dinner. I bought cookies at the store on Friday. On Saturday, I ate everything in sight - I just couldn't stop. Sunday, I had a big dinner and dessert. Twice. Oh - and wine almost every night.
Monday morning, after realizing that Chris and I gained 8 pounds as a team, I was determined to get my head out of my butt and back in the challenge. Easier said than done. I was craving all the bad foods I love and had certainly eaten enough of last week. I made Chris fight with me because I wanted ice cream. It was not a proud day.
I have found that when I go totally off plan, it will take me a week to fight the cravings. I want those cookies and caramel creams and ice cream and bread. If I give in, the week resets. I have been giving in to temptation for a month and my weight shows it. It may look like I lose but I've been gaining and losing the same 10 pounds for almost 6 weeks. This week, I gave back my 150 milestone. I am tired of seeing the same set of numbers on the scale. I have gotten complacent and I'm not sure how to shake it up. Or I don't really want to.
Chris and I were talking about our collective complacency this weekend. We both feel like we have gotten to a point where we aren't always the fattest people in the room - we're just normal fat people. Clothes look better; day to day living is easy; we can get down on the floor and be able to get back up; one flight of stairs doesn't wind us. Personally, I think I need to go back and evaluate my goals and give myself some new S.M.A.R.T. goals because even though I have not reached my weight goal, I have reached my lifestyle goals.
Where does your complacency lie? What throws you off track? How are you going to shake it up?
Could this be the END of the Challenge
Love you when I too need words of encouragement...
Paula Lula Angel
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
I LOVE YOU LITTLE LEO
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Where oh where are you ?????
So my personal goal for this week is ...stay below my old number and keep my new one.....if that is the case...I am less than 20 lbs to my personal goal..who would have thought...but I cant do this alone....well I can ... and I should ...but it is more fun to do it with friends and family...
Love you all when I am missing you,
Paula Lula Angel :0)