Week 13 Update

Here we are - it is exactly halfway through Round 4! Are you half way to your Round 4 goal yet? Have you even lost weight during this round? Are you even still participating?

The only one who lost weight last week is Bart and he has no control over what he puts in his mouth. Why is it that I can control what I feed my dog but not myself? I have gained 10 pounds in the last 13 weeks. I'm disgusted with myself. My clothes don't fit and I don't like what I see in the mirror. I made a promise to myself and all of you that I would do better and I want to say that I have. Then in my head I'm preparing the "but" that comes after. I can't take my water pills right now. They react with the antibiotic I'm taking and I had a pretty violent reaction over the weekend so I'm not going to chance it. I know that I'm retaining a TON of water but I should not use it as an excuse. I can lose weight without it.

I'm starting to mentally plan a vacation to Disney World in February (sorry Chris (we'll be gone for his birthday)) with Paula and Angie and he boys. I want to get there and be able to go on rides and have fun and not worry about how big I am. I have 8 months and I AM determined. I was also promised a vacation with Chris when we both got to a certain weight and it keeps getting further and further away.

As I write all this, the only thing I can think of is the Friendly's Watermelon Roll in the freezer. Why do I have to like food so much? Must. Be. Strong. Must. Look. At. My. Numbers. Over. The. Past. Year. Must. Be. Strong.