I had to fly to Dallas today and when I checked in I was given the option to upgrade my flight. It was 70 dollars and a waste of money, but my comfort is very important to me. I have not yet lost enough weight to be completely comfortable in coach.
Now, on this flight they served lunch, I had a lean pocket for breakfast and went ahead and ate the lunch. It was a chicken sandwich with yummy cheese, a salad with Greek Vinagrette, Crackers and Cheese. I did not eat the Crackers and Cheese.
I had felt guilty about the cheesy chicken sandwich, but it was what was offered. I also ate a small dish of hot salty nuts. (Ok, 12 years old boys can laugh.) I flew back tonight and also upgraded the flight, another $70 for my fat person comfort. They served dinner, it was short ribs, green beans and rice, with a salad. I got the wheat roll, but skipped the cheesy bread. (It looked SO amazing, melted cheese in between italian bread.) 
This is where the tough part comes in. They put a beautiful slice of lemon souffle vanilla cake in front of me. It had brown sugar sprinkled on top of yellow frosting. On the right is a piece of cake that is much more pretty, but you get the idea.
I beat the cake. I wanted it. I really wanted it. I tried to tell myself that I could taste it, just one bite, but I did not do it. The flight attendant came over and asked if I wanted coffee with dessert. I had to beg her to take the cake away. She told me that it took amazing will power to say no, and that she was proud of me. I was proud of me. I am so sad, because I still wonder if the cake was any good.
Here is what this means to me. I want to be good. I want to be more healthy and I love you all and I want it for you. Katie is doing better than all of us. Yvette loses every week. I need your commitment and here is why. When you slip, I want to slip. I hear about Grinders and meatballs, and it makes it hard. *I* need you to be successful, and I really mean it. If you give up, if you falter, I will fall down. I try not to ask for much, but I need this from you. I'm here, I will help, I will yell at you, call you out, listen or sympathize, but you need to stay on program for me. This is a selfish endeavor, your success makes me feel better about this journey.
It is Thanksgiving this week and my goal for the team is for all of us to come out of this week flat. I do not want any gains on the charts this week and I want you to do it for me. Find the 10 minutes to walk. Skip the snack. Do not order take out. Use a smaller plate. This is Chris's week and staying flat means everything to him. Please, do not let me down.
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I won't let you down, Chris. I will lose this week or stay the same. Promise.
Jess
May I make a suggestion? We've all been stressing out about all the fattening, artery clogging foods that we've cheated on, or that we miss so much. Let's try to be more positive! Let's talk more about foods that are tasty and good for us, or share some recipes containing healthy foods. We shouldn't feel like we're being deprived all the time! We've all come such a long way!
Changing our eating habbits isn't easy. It's both a physical and emotional battle. Sometimes we slip, but that doesn't mean we're a failure. I was starting to get stressed out about Thanksgiving, but when you think of it, it's just one day. We have 6 more days in the week to eat right. I know I'm going to eat more than 1300 calories on Thursday, but that's okay for one day. I'll just have to work out a little more on Friday and Saturday. And if I don't lose anything for the week, it's okay. But we can't let ourselves get discouraged. We need to focus on all the accomplishments we've made so far, and be proud of them!
GO TEAM!!!!
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