My Hunger

Sometimes I feel like I get more hungry than other people. I know this sounds strange, but I feel like MY hunger is worse than those around me. How couldn't it be? They eat a small sandwich for lunch and look satisfied. They eat a microwave lean cuisine and life is good. I do those things and I am still STARVING, or least that is how I feel.

Here is the truth of the matter. Anybody who struggles with what they eat feels like their hunger is worse. It is an awful feeling to not have control over your desire for food. Food owns me. I think about eating all of the time. I am always hungry. I love the feeling of being full. That satisfied-can't-eat-another-bite-have-to-unbutton-my-pants kind of feeling is what I want all of the time. So we try to substitute, we eat a big salad, drink a lot of water, but we know the difference. Being stuffed full of lettuce is not like being stuffed full of Prime Rib and Mashed Potatoes (yes the kind you make with CREAM CHEESE.)

I know that alchoholics use the Serenity Prayer for strength, so I have been thinking about using it for my weight loss. (I substitute Bart for God, but the meaning is still there.)

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.