Missing : My self control and willpower
Reward : A long healthy life and all the salad you can eat!
Something has happened to me over the last two months, I don't know what exactly, but I have lost the ability to be stronger than the food. When we started the challenge last year, I had an invigorating ability to say "No" to food and mean it. I wanted the weight loss more than I wanted to eat. And I had the ability to be strong for (and despite) Chris. I could walk throught he grocery store and not linger in the bakery aisle while trying to talk myself into or out of cookies. I could have an apple as an evening snack and be satisfied.
Slowly, my will power has eroded to almost nothing and I need to start fresh or I will not lose any more weight. The mere power of suggestion can send me searching for the Panda Garden take out menu. The Halloween candy in the store is getting harder to resist every time I visit - the only thing that keeps me strong is knowing I would have a whole bag if I bought it.
I need to shrink my stomach again to get it accustomed to not being ovefilled every day. I need to stare down my food demons and walk away with my soul and self control intact. I need to not use food to fill any real or imagined voids in my life. I need to lose 5 pounds this week and prove to myself that I am still in this thing and I have not yet given up!
Lula and I have set the 5 pound challenge for ourselves this week. I am throwing the gauntlet down to the rest of you - are you strong enough to accept the challenge?
3 comments:
i'll join you. I won't likely lose 5 lbs but I'm in for a loss this week. I've been able to avoid the vending machine which for me is my downfall. I've packed a lunch for the past few weeks and that has made all the difference. I'm on a roll and need to stay on track. Your challenge will help me make sure I get there. :o)
Katie, I am right there with you. I told myself a million times that today was going to be a great day. I started off with two scambled eggs, ate an antipasto salad for lunch with NO cheese and NO boiled eggs and balsamic vinegar dressing. Then the football game, five beers and of course Mike brought pizza. I had to eat four pieces and of course I had the bowl of beef stew. I stink at this, I need to be better. Tomorrow I will be great. I am traveling Wed-Fri so I have to be hypervigilant!
I am with you guys!
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